Cupcakes and Hiatuses

Today I spent three hours browsing the internet, looking at food/recipes. I have no idea why, but it happened. This lead to my going "OMG I'M GONNA BAKE" at 4 or so in the afternoon. It is now 9 ish and I have just finished decorating the last batch of cupcakes.

What did I make, you ask? Only two things... however the two things I made were for like massive batch amounts Butterscoctch Fudge drop cookies, modified from King Arthur flour's recipe. For some reason mine didn't turn out all flaky and shiny on top like I'd hoped, but they're delicious _{and holy god rich} anyhow.

I  melted half dark chocolate and butterscotch chips in a double boiler, then followed the rest of the recipe exactly, until it came to the adding chips part and then I did the same 1:1 butterscotch/dark chocolate.

FOR THE LIFE OF ME I CANNOT LEAVE A RECIPE ALONE.

Then I made cupcakes that were very loosely based on Sweetapolia's Licorice Delight cupcakes.

The modifications I made to this recipe would fill about another journal and a half, so I'll omit them. Let's just say that I ended up with vanilla-almond cupcakes with cherry-peach buttercream frosting. oh god are they rich... I couldn't even finish one. :']

I wish I didn't make such rich food, because I have no stomach for it... I eat three bites and start feeling sick or summat.

At the moment I'm standing in my kitchen, procrastinating finishing the dishes >.> Which brings me to the "news" part of this article... I think I wanted to make baked goods today because I've been feeling a little depressed lately, and there's nothing like cookies and cupcakes to make you feel better, right? Everyone appreciates sweets that take obvious effort and look good.

The same isn't so much said for my art. :/ It seems like everything that I work the hardest on or really like the result, it doesn't get so much as a glance or a "huh". My fan art does really well, obviously, because it's something that people know/like/want some or asked for in the first place, but it doesn't mean anything... That's not to say I don't enjoy doing it, because I do. I love all the characters I draw and all, but is that really how I want to get anywhere? By doing watered-down copies of someone else's work? For once I want to make something that someone simply loves, I want to touch people with my art, and I feel that I've gotten away from that...

I have a gallery coming up in May, and I think until then that I'm going to take a bit of a hiatus from doing fan art... It kind of steals my inspiration. :/ I spend all this time and effort on fan art and it turns out good, I think, but then when I go to work on what I really love, I'm out of energy. I just put it off until later.

So I think I need to spend more time on me... This account is probably going to be pretty quiet for a while. I'll still be doing OA, but other than that, I wouldn't expect too much from me...

At any rate this is just me ranting in a gradually more and more depressing manner, so I'm just going to leave it laying here and let you all take it for what you will.

That is all.